那一年 这一天

There will be a certain time in your daily life,

which will be sensitive to some songs,

get touched by the lyrics, fluctuated by the melodies..





那一年这一天


抱紧一点点

以为还有永远

只听见呼吸里爱恨在沉淀

谁都不愿意先说抱歉


晒伤的夏天

反方向把我们拉远

我低着头向前想走出你的世界

却跨进了秋天


那一年

带不到今天

无所谓谁拖谁欠

也许男人对爱的极限

是继续相信永远


这一天

回不到那年

小小幸福我们腻好几天

如果爱逃不过改变

不如承认

对于单纯的爱恋

我们都太怀念



1 2 3 4 .

The simpliest cherish us the most.

I'm just missing it too much.



The temperature in hands

might fades from our palm

when it is no longer holding.

But it warmth the heart once,

beneath the left chest.



The time that needed to absorb the pain,

would be longer than duration when the touching thing was made.

We were all made up by history and memories,

It was all little puzzles that makes us what we are today...

There will be something which we will definitely bring forward,

no matter how eager we are heading into the future

Touches come in seconds,

last for long long time.



If faith leave us one day,

I would carry along the things that you have given,

to continue my journey

It is not a burden.

If it slows me down,

It could make me see,

things and scene which is important in life

along my way,

which makes me complete,

little by little.



You are part of me.

心情译文

思想支配一个人。当思想被病毒入侵的时候，连带地，瞳孔所看见的事物，耳朵听见的歌，呼吸的节奏，触碰到的物体，都会被一种没有气味，也没有形态的压力所支配。

如果把现在的场景，当作是摄影棚里的话，那现在所调制的灯光，说不定是为了一场诡异的惊悚电影情节。

那是一种失去生命力的灯光。

我不晓得那唯一坐在我对面的乘客，是不是也会如此认为。或许对他来说，那不过是一种慵懒的布景，又或者可能是一种舒服的色调。从他没有表情的表情里，丝毫看不出来他会不会有着同样思想的端倪，我无法猜测。但是对我而言，却清晰地感觉到一种无法言语的压迫感在挤缩这一个车厢的空间。这让我感到莫名其妙的心悸。耳边那些企图让我保持清醒的音乐，都变得像重金属一样的音符，凌乱无比。

我很想逃。但当我极力从这地铁的车窗外眺望出去，却看不出我可以逃到这个城市的哪一个地方。

城市就像是一个庞大的机器掀开外壳，里面全都是一组又一组的复杂零件组合。每一个小齿轮和机械都在不停地转动，仿佛是有规律的，却跳乱了节奏。

不同的是，如果一个机器里的零件出了故障，是会令到其他零件的运作模式瘫痪，无法使用。但是，这座少了温度的城市却不一样。

街道上人来人往的陌生脸孔，或是公路上交叉穿梭的车辆，灭了又亮的霓虹灯，仿佛都有一套排列好的模式在操作，纵然还是节奏不同。不过，我们并不会认得那些规律模式出现的人群中少了谁的身影。公路上的车辆，即使是发生多严重的意外，总有人清理公路，收拾残局。等时钟的针再倾斜多一些的角度，车龙还是继续行走，交通灯还是绿了又红，除了报纸上换了一幅生效二十四小时的五乘五吋的报导，其他的，一切恢复正常。

这是一座会吞噬回忆的世界。它吞噬所有有形无形的事物。它吞掉那些扎在深层地基的建筑物，那些流动的人，也吞噬温度，和声音。

当你在拥挤的人群中呐喊，可能谁也听不见你的崩溃，因为在那些嘈杂的喧哗中，你的歇斯底里不过是低分贝的杂音，参差在城市巨大的机械运作的噪音里。没有人会仔细去听，这把幼小的声音想要倾诉些什么。

我好害怕，自己也会被这个狰狞的巨型机械吞噬掉，无声无息的。

我们有着呼吸的时候，都在努力地踩着脚下的那一块土地，用力地呼吸，证实自己的存在。然而，在存在的哲学角度里，却不是占据空间的物体就叫作存在。无法改变其他事物的非生物，在存在的意识里并不存在。人之所以为存在的本质，是因为我们能做出改变。

我厌倦现在的呼吸方式，却没有足够的力量改变它。不晓得在这一个角度里，我，会不会算是不存在。

来不及

人太多时候，需要更多的历练，来懂得怎么去爱另一个人。

我们在年轻的时候，或许都交过好几个男女朋友。以前你遇见的那个女孩，分开之后，或许在你以后的人生中，再也不会遇见比她更优秀的人。但是，那个时候的你，还没学会怎么体贴。

在血气方刚那个年头，你认为女生宠不得。又或者，你认为你需要把时间花在你那刚起步的事业上。

在那个你还不懂得怎么去爱的时候，你的生命中出现了这个女孩。

可是那个时候，你比较爱发脾气。她说错了话，或跟另一个男孩是好朋友，你会对她凶。

又或者，那个女孩喜欢吃的，喜欢的音乐，喜欢的活动，你刚好不喜欢，然后你没办法妥协，也没想过要妥协。

那女孩相信的，你还没有相信。你不相信性格改得掉。她一心想改变你的一些坏习惯，例如抽烟喝酒，你却认为自己不需要为任何人改变。

她要的爱情是浪漫的，你却认为太扭捏作做，也浪费时间精力。

你们面对了难题，但是那个时候的你，还不懂得怎么去解决，或面对那个困难。

你还不是个好男人，直到太多事情改变了你，直到太多时间改变了你，直到那个女孩离开了你。

后来，你相信了本来你不相信的信仰，你学会了妥协，你学会了体谅，也学会了体贴入微。

你因为她的离开而变成了个好男人，但是时间过去，你的改变却没能把曾经的那个好的女孩换回来。

她还在你身边的时候，你来不及学会那些事情。

其实不只是年轻的男孩会这样。年轻的女孩，也是同一个样子。

在我们最漂亮的那个时候，那些男生围绕着我们打转。入世未深的女孩，也未必会认得对自己最好的那个男孩。或许是他不够帅，或许是他不够高，不够坏，不象那些像恶魔一样的坏男孩，拥有强大的魅力。

直到你被伤害了之后，才想起那些肯宠你的男孩，那些把你当公主的男孩。

可惜的是，当时间离去，当青春离去，当好的男孩也离去的时候，你才发现，原来少了那些娇宠，你什么也不是。

但是却也来不及了。我们太清楚，岁月是最来不及的事。

女孩看的世面多的时候，会希望找个年纪比较大的男人，来当男朋友或情人，甚至是丈夫，他们比较会疼女孩。

只是，男孩在看的世面多的时候，却只会选择年纪轻的女孩。不但只是因为她们单纯年轻。年纪比较大的女生，历练比较多，也得到过很多男生的娇宠。

被宠坏过的女生，会变得很聪明。对于他们来说，需要付出的比较多。

看得起和看不起的人

人分男人和女人。这个标题想说的又将男人和女人分成两类，分别为看不起的男人和女人，或是欣赏/看得起的男人与女人。

如果要在看得起和看不起之间的距离，用一条线连接起来的话，我总希望自己可以离看不起的那一端远一些，与自己欣赏的人靠近一些。

先来说男人。

看得起的男人，虽然不是要求每一样事情都做到一百分，但是风度是决定性的关键，不可以没有，等于他们的宝贝一样重要。

很多事情上面男人可以显露风度，在与你谈恋爱的男人也懂得故作风度。不过，有一点倒是值得一提。

这个风度，只能在分手后的那一刻才看得清楚。

有智慧的男人，不会在分手之后，有意或无意向其他人提起他前女友的过失，或者是弱点。他们会考量到那个女生的声誉。无论那个女生在爱着他们的时候，有多么不完美，或是有多么地不对。

也不会否认他们爱过那个她。

分手后的风度与气度，毕竟不容易找。


提过了值得被欣赏的男人，现在点出最看不起的男人。

除了打女人有外遇抛弃糟糠之外，有一种男人最要不得。

就是跟你分手后要生要死，自己看不起自己，一脸可怜相，要全世界的人都同情他的人。

或者可以说是出自于爱，但是那种爱，太没有修为了，而且不被需要。

男人毕竟和女人不同。女人可以在分手后威胁男人，激起男人最后的怜悯，但是对于女人，却起不了多大作用。

硬要把分手的痛苦绝望，加在已经选择退出你的爱情的那个人，非要做出一些令对方为难的事，太没有品德。

而且会说要爱你爱得赔上性命的人，毕竟最爱的是自己。

把自己的生命押在另外一个人身上的人，如果不属于为爱牺牲的那种伟大情操，只不过是浪费生命与资源。因为如果真的死掉了，处理尸体也需要时间精力，也浪费家人的眼泪。

这种男人没有种，把他要回来的，也是一个笨女人。


我想把看得起的女人放在最后，所以先提看不起的女人。

我可以理解一个女人的本性刁蛮任性，小气，自私，发浪，耍可爱，崇尚名牌，不可一世，

但是却没办法妥协虚伪，表里不一的女人。

明明是爱慕虚荣，却爱强调自己的清高。明明是小家子，却在人前慷慨大方，背后暗箭伤人。又或者明明希望大家赞美羡慕，却拼命贬低自己，要别人说相反的话，来满足自己的炫耀心态的女人。

如果一个女人想发浪，坦荡荡展示对自己的自信，不惺惺作态，不讨论自身审美观与大众标准妥不妥协的问题，诚实作自己，毕竟不会那么让人讨厌。


最后是值得欣赏的女人。

不一定要是女强人，不一定要年轻美丽有身材。但是，即使拥有所有的优质条件，却不需要靠男人的女人。

她们或许也还没找到自己的爱情，却不需要靠着男人的恭维，来肯定自己自身的价值。

拿蔡依林来说吧，姑且不讨论她是艺人的身份，作为一个女人，可以驾跑车住豪宅，都是靠着自己的本事的，不是不多，而是很少。

努力认真的女人最美，因为她们做自己靠自己，肯定自己。虽然很多人在音乐的角度里认为她卖的只是流行，但是对于这一类型的人，那种欣赏虽然没有让我成为她的粉丝，但至少遏止我否定她的付出，或成为参与批评她的那一种人。

活出自己对生命那种认真的态度，有智慧，有修养的女人，是女人都会欣赏的女人。

Random Stuffs

One month after graduate. Once we are leaving school we can called ourself "officially unemployed workforce". The ratio of unemployment have to be increased since this is the period there are also many Institutions releasing potential graduate students.

I found there are something very weird on myself.

During the period that I'm very free, and having a lot of extra time to waste, the less frequent I will update my blog. The busier I am, the more thing I want to write in my blog.

So you can see that I'm actually a very free person.

Thursday afternoon, with the sky owning a sunny face.

I wish to record down some random stuff that happens to me in this one and a half month time.

1. My name still haven't appear in the Graduation List for 10th Convocation 2009 of MMU.

http://smartcard.mmu.edu.my/2009_convocation/

2. I have just done a part time job of weekends in Jusco Maluri, for a Beauty Collagen drink.

I have get to know some new friends there. One of them whose name is Yvonne share a story of the Jusco outlet with me.

If you are a frequent shopper of Jusco Maluri, you will probably notice a old lady who is at her 70's, with short figure, and talk with very loud voice, passed by there everyday.

To be more precise, she is not just passing by, but patrolling around like what a manager should do in the outlet. She will observed around to see whether is there anyone stealing things. If she found that someone walk out from the supermarket with items which is not inside a Jusco plastic bag, she will probably scream at you, claims that you are a theif, and grab the item to return to the shelf. She will even report to the security guard she gets anyone did mistake.

You probably will ask, why is that the officers there, or Jusco staff never take any action to stop her, since what she is doing might interupt the shoppers.

Based on the story that I heard, long time ago, her family owned the site which Jusco is landing. Her son sold it to this company, take the money, and leave her alone.

Till now, deep inside the heart of this old lady, Jusco is still her asset, and she has the responsible of the business. However, she never grab anything from the shelf and bring home as she likes.

"Two of you huh, must work hard..." She passed by in front of me and my friend, talked like as she is the one hiring us.

I do not know how true is the story. What makes us feel better is, we can see that the employees inside Jusco will treat her in a good way like how we should treat an old folk. Even strangers know how to respect an old lady, if her son is really that unfilial to her, it is really a shame.

3. I wear a high heels to work for Sunday in Jusco, since my sister has wore her shoe to go out. I have no other black shoe.

At the end of the day, I walked like a snail to go to LRT Maluri from Jusco. My foot was almost broken after near 8 hours of standing on high heels. Even pedestrian looks at me like I have a shit on my face.

High heels kills.

4. I bought a Nano toner with RM14.90, and get a free gift which is a Nano Omega Day Shield which worth RM29.90. Too bad there is only SPF, but not with PA value. (SPF is to avoid getting sun burn for your skin, PA is to avoid getting dark)

I still remember when I bought my last Nano toner was with price RM16.90, which is actually selling at RM19.90 in the market. Now it is even lower price.





5. I went to an Interview of Scope International, for the position of Global Operation Officer, which is located at Bukit Jalil, inside the TPM ( Teknology Park of Malaysia). That is the very first interview that I attended.

Thanks to the blessing of god. I have been hired.

I work in a park man! Teknology Park! I simply love that place. The compound is so spacious.



6. I just realize I can sell like an aunt, after I have done another part time job which is only from 4-8:30pm, selling shower gel at Wangsa Maju LRT station.

The agency that past us the job came to the station late. Me and another 2 part time colleagues waited for them since 3:30pm, which they only arrive at 5pm.

Nothing really special about this job. On the way back to home, I noticed a quote in LRT which I really like it.

" Art is made to disturb. Science reassure. There is only one thing valuable in Art, which is you cannot explain it"~ by George Braque

It is so true. Art can't be analysed by figures and statistics, but it appears to be a very direct way of communication, from the author to the public, without using any language as transmitters.

It reminds me of a phrase of symbols that I send to a person and make him thinks whole day for the hidden meaning of it.


7. I have cleared the storeroom, removes near 100++kg of stocks and books ( well this is exaggerate skill, part of literature) , old clothes, old files and documents, and my brother's toys out from that little space. My family actually get shocked of the storage that a little storeroom can keep after moved the things out.

I am doing it 90% alone.

We bought the white paint for the window, and going to get "Sakura Pink" as the wall color. Based on my speed, I predict that I am going to take one month to transform the storeroom into a sweet little bedroom.

Share with you my pc desktop picture.


How nice if my room can look like this.



Let's see what's more random stuff coming up.

What is your dream house?

Buying a house is like still a very far dream from us now at this age. Even many of the working adults who are not having any plan for a new house will not be bothered to look at those brochures, model house, or websites that show these kind of information.

It is something just like when we go Pavilion, we will not walk in Coach, GUCCI, or GUESS shop if we know that we do not have the ability to buy it.

However, the words from my lecturer changed my perception. She once told us that, there is one day she walked into Omega to look for those luxury watches.


At first we thought that she was trying to show off how abundance she is. She adds in:" I tried for the expensive watches, but I told the sales girl that I'm not affordable for it."

" So you guys think what is the reaction of that sales girl?" she asked us

" shooo you out!"

" turn a dead face to you?"

" Just smile to you?"

I remember that the whole marketing class were guessing the sales girl reaction in the class.

"Nope, she smile to me and said, its okay madame, may be you are not affordable for this right now, but may be the other day you will. Hope that you will recall back of us and welcome back to us."

The whole class gave a loud applause after listen to the lecturer. The loud applause is for that little sales girl.

That sales girl might be just being trained for the good way of retaining good relationship with potential customer. However, one very true thing is, no matter you are rich or poor now, it is a good motivation to find out your desire and work positively for it.

Below are the pictures of houses that I got from Malaysia property

















Almost every picture that I see from the website are the "tall tall" building. Majority of the property in the website are condominiums.

It is fully enclosed with the property details, layout, facilities and analysis of the building.

I hope there are more pictures of one building, as we might concerned of the space, not only with the figures stated how much square feet in the description, but also the layout and design of the space inside.

Just sharing my 2 cents. Have a very nice day everyone.

Away from home

I still can remember that about 4 years ago, the moment I was facing the decision for where to further my study.

I was having two option. Multimedia University which is located in Malacca, or to study and struggle hard in Form 6 in KL.

I was 17, a little innocent teen that never being away from house.

At that time, I was crying and ask my parents don't let me go so far away, I want to stay at home, live with my parents, and having girl's talk with my siblings at late night.

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Okay. Touching story ends here.

If you are my friends that close to me enough in University, you probably will bang my head and yell to me now.

"You don't bluff la, sampat pui yee! We know you wish to run away from your home deep inside every cell of your brain!"


I admit it now.

After years, I have also started to find out the advantages of staying outside and being independent.

What actually surprised me is, my relationship with my family members even become more closer compare than the past.

A lot of my friends in University are coming from different states of Malaysia, varies from up to Kedah until down to Johor. Many of them will choose to find their job in other states too, no matter for their internship or future career.

I have spending at least 20 years grown up in KL. However, that's always one very wonderful traits inside everyone of us. We will want to runaway from what we used to stick with at this young age.

So my mission now, is to find a job that could help me escape from my home.

I'm a bad girl.

For those that who need to find room for rent and to let, here is a website collected a lot of choices of room for rent.


It various from KL, Selangor, Penang, Melaka, Negeri Sembilan, and all the others states in Peninsular Malaysia. It includes also the Sabah Sarawak too. It states the condition of the room/ house, and the rental is clearly stated.

Hope that this could help you guys out.